The Past has come back to Bless Me

I saw one of my ex-boyfriends this month and it had been about 10 years since I've seen him last. Although unresolved emotions turned up, I was grateful to see him happy and progressing in life. He's married with a couple kids and has a good job.
As I was turning over the unresolved emotions, I realized I was mourning the loss of his friendship. We had been best friends for years and only dated in college for one year. As I look back at our friendship and the qualitites he had, I see how it prepared me to marry my husband and to be able to support a very stubborn husband. (The ex also had an overdose of stubbornness.)
As my husband has become less stubborn and more open minded over the years, I can see why he was the one I was supposed to marry. Heavenly Father really looks after me and prepares me for things I don't understand in the present time. It was difficult for me to have my husband be so similar to an ex-boyfriend , with a constant reminder. (Hobbies, stubbornness, etc.) I thought I was being tortured at times but in the end it is turning out to be wonderful and exceptional!

I felt different and it was good

I was sitting on the couch in the living room and my oldest 2 children were with me. They were being silly and I felt happy. I even teased my son and adored his teasing and giggles he gave back. My daughter just giggled with us and I LOVED it. I felt different and it was GOOD.
For many years I have been struggling with postpartum depression and have lacked tolerance and motivation. It was sweet to have a moment of tolerance, but not just that, I actually enjoyed my children how I want to.