Saturday, May 15, 2010

Asking for Support

Like all married couples, my husband and I argue. Although we argue, I am always grateful he is my husband and picked out special just for me. I am so emotionally needy and it is hard for him to support me how I need it.
We figure it out and make it work and I just feel so grateful I have him to figure things out with. He tries and listens and wants to support me. I really couldn't ask for more. He is my perfect partner to progress with.
I have started my no sugar, balancing diet and mild exercise. I called my parents and two of my sisters for support and of course my husband. I have struggled doing all these stresses at the same time but have learned how important it is for me to do it this way. I have worked on each one separate-diet, exercise, daily stress, emotional, relationship, etc, and it is time to put it together.
I am finding new coping mechanisms and simplifying my life to create less stress. I talk to the kids so they know I am having a hard day. I have realized that asking for help or support is my main struggle. My kids are supporting me too and it is nice that they try to help me. I have been so blessed as the bad/crazy days get less often and I am able to stay calm enough to make better choices in how I react.
I have been blessed to have my aunt (a massage therapist) help me with drawing negative past emotions out so I can be less consumed or triggered by them. I felt at peace when she said, "they aren't something that just goes away, and we need this help sometimes". I have been battling against them and trying to let them go and they won't leave. She draws them out and I feel better but she can only do a little at a time so it will take more time to get it all out. The best news is, they can all be gone at some point.
My most recent revelation was my mind and body have not been together. They are opposite. One is ready when the other says no and they flip sides for nearly everything I do. My motivation levels are effected by this. It was a great wake up call to identify this but I have not found a solution yet. It is a start and now I can see what I can do or track my progress with this information. Knowledge is empowering.

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