Worn Out

After having pushed so hard to finish our home and get everyone settled in our normal routines, I realized how worn out I am. I know I have to be aware of the stresses of our lives and keep things simple but I still feel exhausted. I don't jump back into life and recover like I used to. I have been able to stay home and try to relax and it has been hard since my mind is busy but I just can't do what I'd like to do right now. My husband was exhausted but was able to recover and get back to his regular routine. It is hard to see life passing and hope that you aren't missing anything. One thing I learned from my postpartum was that sometimes we just have to wait. Here I am waiting again and it is okay, and honestly I am not missing anything. My adrenaline is there to push me through when I need it. I am able to support my husband and children in their activities but I am still figuring out how to do the things I want to do without exhausting myself. It is crazy how we figure out one aspect of our life and then we have to struggle to figure out another. I know how to wait but now I am figuring out how to balance the things I want to do and still take care of my family. It is a juggling act for me that doesn't end well when I am too tired. I feel the baby steps I am taking and I am glad. I know we are where we are supposed to be and I will just allow time to help me find the energy and balance I need to take care of myself. I feel comforted that I can just be tired right now.