Since our decision to move in June, my husband has been spending more time sleeping over at the farm for work and I'm home for days without him. I support him working but it is hard to be the only one responsible for our home and the kids for so long.
I was having a terrible day while he was gone and the support system I had created for myself was crashing and I was struggling. My sister happened to call right then and asked how I was doing. I cried in frustration to her about my struggles. She listed things I should do and my answer was I couldn't because it wasn't available to me. Then she told me to go on a walk and talk to my Heavenly Father until I felt better or had an answer.
It must have been the coldest day that week, with a biting wind, but I did it. I talked and cried and prayed. Willing myself to go until I felt better and then my answer came. SIMPLIFY. Immediately my frustration was gone and I calmed down.
I'm not sure in detail how I should simplify but I know it is what I must do. I felt impressed to ask my mom and she had useful suggestions on how to cope with my husband gone. Some suggestions she gave didn't help with this situation but helped me reestablish my own decisions on what not to do and why.
I've had a couple weeks and still have not pinned down exactly what simplify means for me but I feel reassured that if it gets tough, then that word will reassure me and it has. I do make my current decisions based on simplifying so maybe that's it. I just KNOW I need to simplify and I TRUST that that is enough until I understand more later.
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