We moved. After being apart while I did the stuff for our family at home and my husband worked away from home 6 days a week consistently we were breaking down. Who wants to be away from the person you chose to be with?
I was coping poorly. I was happy, which was nice, but I became increasingly independent and individualized. I had to take care of so much by myself with no partner that I had to cope with pushing the idea that I could have help from my husband out of my head. Red flags started going up when I was less and less upset with handling life without him, and then to finally just be indifferent if he even called me. I did NOT want this! I love needing my husband and talking to him!
We talked and vented the frustration of the situation when we decided to talk to the kids in the morning before school about moving. We just told them we were having a rough time being apart and thought it would be best if we were together even if it meant moving. The younger two were fine with it. The oldest, not as easy but the sweetness of wanting to help us out was wonderful. They said if it would help us then they would do it for us. We changed schools the next Monday and have felt happy since.
I really don't think we have a clue as to what we are really doing sometimes. Our lives are directed by the spirit in so many ways. We don't know where we need to be and why, but sometimes we just end up there. I know we are supposed to be right where we are. I know it because I feel so good about everything and everything has fallen into place without stress and no regret. It's SIMPLE. We want to be together and this is where my husband works so we might as well SIMPLY move to be together where the job is.
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